Have you guys ever wonder ... this world is actually cruel ? Is like .. they will only know you when you success but on the opposite hand when you fall they dont bother giving you a helping hand .. Sometimes i think .. i fell rather i'm the normal person ... no flying colour result or some sensational news ... seriously .. because when you does have something sensational ... you will like everyone's treasure... everyone will just treat you different and they think they "knows" you very well but there are something you have to pay back .. that is " Winning ".... I can sure all of them will always expect you win .. you will be the best always and win all the titles or whatever which need you to win ... When you just fell a little ... you will know what happen ... they will get back everything they gave you and you have nothing .. isn't it boring ? or maybe this is life ? i dont know ... They only care about glory , winning ... but they dont know how hard we train or how much we suffer to get sort of good result ...

But one thing i always remind myself .. all winning came from hardworking .. no one will get good result without hard work ... you win because you train more and harder then the person who lose ... but you lose is because that person do more hard work then you .... thats what i know all this year and i too know everyone will only seen those who are good ... But for another case is .. you are the most luckiest person in the world ... without pratice then you can have a very good result .. but i dont know this option can use anot because probably thats only lucky you can got that time .. haha .. whose know ?

Know why i can keep swimming for so long ? is because of my dad , my family ... yeah .. i know everything is decide by ourselves but for me different ... i can do everything that make all the people around me happy ... whatever things... I just finish my competiton few weeks ago ... Thats the most good competiton i did this year .. i almost improve all the event and i too get medals in this competition .. my dad had record it and he keep watching over and over again ... so sound very happy and he very enjoying it ... haha ... he said this can make him always remember back the moment when i at the finsh line ... actually me too very happy about that .. all people never expect anything on me but now i did something that make people felt impressive ... me too very surpise .. by the time i at the finish line ... i just feel like i cant heard anything and i just enjoying everyone wishing and greeting .. really ... and actually i cant heard anything that time but i still know what they trying to tell me ... that moment is just too sweets .. haha .. like i'm the most famous person in the swimming pool ... i have been stay low profile like a year and now finally i got some result ...

I was really really very happy ... on thw way back home i ask about my dad's feeling and he just say very very very surprise about that ... haha ... i was actually still looking the records and i just smiling to myself ... haha ... like i was a insane women ... haha ...the competition name is '' Mini Olympic '' haha...

Day....

Kind of boring those day .. Not training then tuition .. not tuition then go school ... Haihhhhh ... But somehow .. got some good result during training so never mind la .. Nowadays ah .. a friend of mine got in a very big problem ... Sad until want to suicide .. i also dont know how to help her la .. want to help her but dont know.. dont help her but scared she will do something crazy ... Haihhh ... how le ... serious dont know how ..



A lot of parent will suggest that during school age cannot have boyfriend ... because they scared they will do something wrong and only care about coupling in school and dont want to study ... but nowadays for teenager they wont think so ... not like old-school .. they always think that when come out to work only allow to have couple ... huh .. for teenager they will just say like ' Never mind 1 la ... couple only ma , not doing crime also ' Lols... they will think that even me .. but sometimes think it back .. it will be saver if you listen to parents because .. example like my friend .. now she because her boyfriend want to break out with her and now she thinking to commit suicide ... Lols... seriously dont know what to say ...

Lucky now she's being better and better already .. LoLs.. Thanks God .. i dont know what will happen if she really do something stupid just because of a guy ... haha ..... Those day like everyone is mourning about Micheal Jackson's dead ... i can just say is really very sad to heard that he is dead ... the King Of Pop is dead ... He is a legend you know .. since i was young until now he is still so famous ... thousand of fans , billion of money ... the best sale rate in the world since 1993 ... OMG .. can just say this guy is insane and damn famous ... haha ... but what to do ? MJ use his childhood to change everything he has now .. but end up .. pass away in early age ... hmmm ..

Last time when he's was famous i was just a baby ... but when i grew up .. what i read is all those bad news from him .. such as about the children , about the surgery .. all those stuff like this ... really very poor of him .. all the time he was working hard to perform to show all his fans , all those money that he donated , all the children he helped .. no one says anything about it ... why ? why are the people just says about his bad stuff but not all this good thing ? seriously .. did all the reporter or even somebody that try to hurt him thinks that i make those news is because they want all his fans knows about all his bad news ... something that i really angry about is ... why that all those people make those story and actually all this story is not ture ? Isn't it a foolish reaction ? All those will only thinks okay now i make those story and i will get money from MJ .. he will just give me thousand or even billion US Dollar ... What are all those people thinking ... SERIOUSLY DONT UNDERSTAND !!!!!!

In Chinese .. there's a phase .. it says good news no one will tell but bad news it will separate to thousand miles... is really true ... but i really do hope now he at heaven can rest in peace .. to world that he want for so long , relax and no more pressure ... Lets just pray for him ....

Spm is coming very soon enough .. i'm really scared i will just fail everything ... but hope that will never happen to me .. haha ... i spend this whole year to study just hope to get good result ... haha ... anyway .. i'm been study hard like hell ... but i felt like my brain is still empty .. i want to start study hard and dont touch laptop .. but i just cant .. because i cant leave without it .. haha ...

Anyway .. hope everyone good luck everyday and enjoy your weekend !!!!! hehe ...

Cheat!!!!!!!

Hey Hey... long time never post thing already .. haha ... because now i just started back my training .. so i have no time to post thing liao .. everyday study , training , tuition ... Oh My God !!!! Actually 1 day 24 hours really not enough for me le .. Hmmm ... If i like few years ago maybe i wont say like that la .. because that time i still haven face Spm ma .. but now .. Stresss!!!!!

Oh ya .. let me tell you guys 1 thing .. we have our school sport day last Saturday and is really fun .. because that's the first time i take part in sport day .. so many years already my dad also don't like me join the sport day .. he say i will injured easily so ... lol .. but is really fun .. and during we prepare for our sport day is so tired .. everyday need to stay back to school to train then all the banner , flat , bom bom ( that's what they called it .. i don't know why .. haha ..) then have to train all the runner ... is really tiring but .. i realised.. my school all of us also good in teamwork so we finish all those stuff very fast then they really hardworking on practicing the cheer , track and field and team spirit is very good also .. I just want to say .. really really thank you to of all them because at first me and another guy ketua also tot no 1 will help us but at the end .. everyone also help us about how should we do the banner , flat and all those stuff.. another thing is about the cheer .. one of my teammate because he want to think about the step then he really very tired because he have to study the he have alot of camp ...

Sometimes not only our own team will come and help other team also come over to help .. because they have more gain more experience on sport day so they always come over and give us a hand.. haha ... this whole sport day is so nice and happy .. because my team got third so far .. i really really happy because so many years my team also get last but this year can go to top three so okay la .. not too bad already ..

But there's one thing really pissed me off.. the thing is one of our school team .. Hmmm .. we assume it as L ... you know right .. usually sport day is like our competition between club and club and we can't find other team member to join us 1 right .. but this L team , they go look for other good athlete from other team to run for them ... so we find out then we told our teacher about this .. This L team don't even have a single feeling sorry some more they say we all because jealous them got first so that we make up story... WHAT THE F**K !!!! Then we prove to them they really cheat... They didn't say sorry to us neither ... some more want to gather all their people to come and have a fight with us .. Haihhhh ..

At the end .. this L team got fourth .. because teacher have already DQ them alot of event .. I so happy le .. because finally they got their punishment lucky them didn't got last .. if not i will really celebrate on that( I so EVIL!!!) ... haha ..But anyway .. sport day is actually about teamwork and also team spirit .. both thing my team also did it .. hahahahahahahaha....

Okay ... this is all about feeling those week ... I will try to find sometimes to post something new .. because I really really busy ... hahaha .... bye bye !!!!!

Me ...

I so long never post anything on the blog already .. i really have no time to online at the moment .. today i will write something on the blog is just want to share something with you guys .. because this few days i do think alot for my future and sort of some stuff like that .. my brain just keep on turn and turn and turn .. i just couldn't stop thinking .. and i dont know why .. lol ..

I read a book last few days .. this book is about this man how to become so famous.. what he did in the past , how he feel .. and some stuff like that .. i felt very same like him .. bacause what did in the past is actually what i'm doing now ..

I actually and really don't want to swim anymore .. but because of my dad then i keep on swimming .. and you guys will ask ' why you don't want to swim anymore ? now you are so good and you got potential in swimming .. why you want to stop ?' blah blah blah.. haha .. this is what i ever heard for this 2 month times ..

Have you guys ever think before or ask yourself before why you are doing this ? for example like i have ever ask myself what i swimming for .. for my dad ? for being famous ? for money ? for knowing more friends ? for fun ? or just pretend doing something do that the time will run faster ? i will tell you surely is .. i dont know ... i dont know what i am swimming for .. i really dont know ..

The thing that make me go further , make me go faster in swimming is actually my family ... my family makes me go further .. my cousin that in my father side is actually damn proud of me .. they called my dad and my grandfather they caught me in the tv , they saw me in the newspaper .. and the eldest said .. ' our family have live in this world for so long .. now our family finally have someone can show other people that how proud our family is .. kah yan have make this family proud , kah yan have make our great grandparents or great great grandparents proud... '

Do .. do you actually know how good is that feel ?? i mean you make this whole family proud and they can go out and tell their friend that oh i have a very good grandchildren , she represents the country in swimming , she won alot of medal like this .. i very very happy that i can make this family feel proud you know ..

But ... i really feel tired , boring in swimming already ... everyday morning you go school then come back home do homework then rest a while then after that you straight away go for your training then after the training already straight away from the pool to tuition .. every night around 10 then you only can really sit or feel like you are really at home .. this is my life .. i know to someone maybe ou will feel that is a very easy life or a simple life .. but for me .. is a very tired life .. i know this is the life for a swimmer .. every swimmer does that or go throught this life before ... or .. or even someone have a even more tired and tough life then me .. but .. i have been like this for 12 years already .. is more then half of my age already ... is really really very enough ..

Maybe some of you guys think .. wa .. this girl why say until like herself is the only one having a very tough life only .. i'm not trying to show off or something .. i just want to share my emotion now .. if i keep this to myself .. i guess myself will get crazy someday .. lol ..

I dont like people tell me .. i am very dissapointed in you .. i really very scare people tell me this few words .. no matter you are my friend of my coach or my teacher or my family .. i will do everything and make everything perfect to just avoid someone tell me .. i feel very dissapointed in you ...

First time i heard this word from is my dad .. that time i was only dont know 7 or 8 years old .. i dont know to do what my mom say .. and i make my mom very angry .. then my mom go and tell my dad that what i have done .. i cant really remember what i did but i know i make my mom really angry .. then 1 night my dad come and talk to me and said i feel really very dissapointed in you .. after that night .. i dont dare to not listen to my mom anymore .. because i scare after he told me already he will never talk to me anymore ... he will just left me alone .. even untill now i also very scare people will say those word to me already and they will just left me alone and dont want to talk to me anymore and dont want to be friend with me anymore .. i very scare to be alone .. serious .. thats why i will always think should i talk those word out and i won't hurt anybody's feeling ..

The second time i heard is last year october when i'm in india .. i go there for commomwealth youth .. my coach said those word to me .. that time i really really sad and i cry so badly .. because i have already try so hard to swim good in my time but end up i still do a very bad timing in my 100 free i guess .. then when i go and see him that time .. he scold me then he said he dont want to see me anymore and ask me go away .. the thing that i always avoid in swimming is .. i dont let my own coach scold .. even i'm in national team now .. i will do what he told me to and the timing he wants me to do i also will or even i can do faster then that .. but when i in national team .. everything change .. not that i say national team not good .. is good too .. but is just me ..

In the 12 years .. first time i get scold from coach is coach Gavin .. in japan .. during japan open .. 2007 .. first time i get scold from my own coach is that time .. i did a very bad timing in my 100 free .. becuase i was too nervous .. so thats why i cant do well .. lol ..


Alright .. i dont think i should talk too much .. later you all think i so annoying .. haha .. anyway .. thanks to someone who read this .. because i was really looking for someone to talk .. and thanks for reading it ..

Result For Asian Universiti Games

First day 17th December 2008(Wednesday)...


Girls 100m freestyle - Khoo Cai Lin ( Mas) 58.16s

Boys 100m freestyle - Daniel Bego (Mas ) 51.97s

Girls 400m Medley - Thi Thu Trang Nguyen ( Vietnam ) 5.18.67s

Boys 400m Medley - Melvin Chua ( Mas ) 4.38.63s

Girls 50m Backstroke - Shelomita Elisabeth ( Indonesia ) 31.54s

Boys 50m Backstroke - Glenn Victor Sutanto ( Indonesia ) 27.81s

Girls 200m Butterfly - Methawee Metheesart ( Thailand ) 2.26.50s

Boys 200m Butterfly - Daniel Bego ( Mas ) 2.04.47s

Girls 100m Breaststroke - Rachel Lim Leik ( Mas ) 1.16.32s

Boys 100m Breaststroke - Huu Viet Nguyen ( Vietnam ) 1.03.38s


Second Day 18th December 2008 ( Thursday ) ..


Boys 200m Freestyle - Daniel Bego ( Mas ) 1.52.64s

Girls 200m Freestyle - Khoo Cai Lin ( Mas ) 2.03.55s

Boys 200m Medley - Melvin Chua ( Mas ) 2.09.67s

Girls 200m Medley - Jiratida Phinyosophon ( Thailand ) 2.27.98s

Boys 50m Breaststroke - Huu Viet Nguyen ( Vietnam ) 29.25s

Girls 50m Breaststroke - Rachel Lim Leik ( Mas ) 35.06s

Boys 4*200m Freestyle Relay - Malaysia 8.01.58s

Girls 4*200m Freestyle Relay - Thailand 8.58.08s


Third Day 19th December 2008 ( Friday )..


Girls 200m Breaststroke - Mo Qiyu Sandy ( Singapore ) 2.46.96s

Boys 200m Breaststroke - Huu Viet Nguyen ( Vietnam ) 2.21.91s

Girls 400m Freestyle - Khoo Cai Lin ( Mas ) 4.16.96s

Boys 400m Freestyle - Daniel Bego ( Mas ) 3.59.13s

Girls 50m Butterfly - Marellyn Liew ( Mas ) 27.89s

Boys 50m Butterfly - Glenn Victor Sutanto ( Indonesia ) 25.16s

Girls 100m Backstroke - Chui Lai Kwan ( Mas ) 1.08.06s

Girls 4*100m Freestyle - Malaysia 4.05.12s

Boys 4*100m Freestyle - Malaysia 3.34.09s


Fourth Day 20th December 2008 ( Saturday ) ..


Girls 800m Freestyle - Khoo Cai Lin ( Mas ) 8.47.77s

Boys 1500m Freestyle - Kevin Yeap ( Mas ) 16.08.60s

Girls 100m Butterfly - Marellyn Liew ( Mas ) 1.02.95s

Boys 100m Butterfly - Daniel Bego ( Mas ) 54.61s

Girls 200m Backstroke - Porntip Smithsarakarn ( Thailand ) 2.31.63s

Boys 200m Backstroke - Melvin Chua ( Mas ) 2.13.95s

Girls 50m Freestyle - Chui Lai Kwan ( Mas ) 27.23s

Boys 50m Freestyle - Kendrick L.UY ( Philippines) 23.80s

Girls 4*100m Medley - Malaysia 4.28.53s

Boys 4*100m Medley - Indonesia 3.55.00s


They are all the result for asian universiti game.. About the boys 100m beckstroke i will post it later becuase i have miss out the match .. sorry .. hehe ..

Twilight!!!!

I bet you guys ever heard Twilight before right ? haha .. is a very nice movie .. you guys should go and watch .. i promise .. this movie have alot of hot guy .. haha .. you guys will love it .. hehe

Twilight's protagonist Edward Cullen , with his brooding eyes and fancy hair , is a pure pop fantasy creation aimed at setting teen girls' part Edward Scissorhands and a direct descendant of Lord Byron , Edward is hot !!!!!Especially when he confesses to the object of his affection,"I can read every mind in this room except yours.... "Well .. what i can say ? haha..

A pale loner,bella swam which play by Kristen Stewart , moves to the new school in rainy Washington State ,and sees across the cafeteria , a tall , paler loner ,Edward Cullen which play by Robert Pattinson , glowering at her . Bella immediately smitten ; for Edward.. it is love at first sniff .

You see .. Edward,it turn out,is a "vegetarian" vampire who only suck animal blood but bella's presence is threatening to break his restraint.Torn between eating and loving bella ,he tries to scare her away with his evil stares but this only makes her fall more helplessly in love with him .. Hmmm..

But if the little matter of Edward's undeadness is not obstacle enough on their path to eternal love,an evil vampire called James which play by Cam Gigandet , attempts to steal Bella away from her vampire lover and make her his meal ..

Haha.. this is a part of the movie .. but you guys really should go watch .. because i have already watch twice .. hehe .. because this movie is just great .. and also can see handsome guy in this movie .. so .. why not ? but this movie have already put on the cinema very long already .. so if you really want to watch .. should go now .. hehe ..

Oh ya .. if you guy didn't get the see the movie .. well .. all bookstore have already sell the books .. they have 4 .. but i only have seen 2 book so long .. you can get the book if you don't get to see the movie in cinema .. hehe ....

Hello!!

Hey.. i'm new here.. my name is kah yan .. i was born in malaysia , KL .. this year i 16 years old .. haha .. sound a bit stupid.. haha .. anyway .. just want you guy to know .. you can always come to my blog and take a look .. haha .. but i guess i wont be always can post anything on it .. haha .. becuase will be quit busy next week .. hehe .. anyway .. nice to meet you guys ..