Me ...

I so long never post anything on the blog already .. i really have no time to online at the moment .. today i will write something on the blog is just want to share something with you guys .. because this few days i do think alot for my future and sort of some stuff like that .. my brain just keep on turn and turn and turn .. i just couldn't stop thinking .. and i dont know why .. lol ..

I read a book last few days .. this book is about this man how to become so famous.. what he did in the past , how he feel .. and some stuff like that .. i felt very same like him .. bacause what did in the past is actually what i'm doing now ..

I actually and really don't want to swim anymore .. but because of my dad then i keep on swimming .. and you guys will ask ' why you don't want to swim anymore ? now you are so good and you got potential in swimming .. why you want to stop ?' blah blah blah.. haha .. this is what i ever heard for this 2 month times ..

Have you guys ever think before or ask yourself before why you are doing this ? for example like i have ever ask myself what i swimming for .. for my dad ? for being famous ? for money ? for knowing more friends ? for fun ? or just pretend doing something do that the time will run faster ? i will tell you surely is .. i dont know ... i dont know what i am swimming for .. i really dont know ..

The thing that make me go further , make me go faster in swimming is actually my family ... my family makes me go further .. my cousin that in my father side is actually damn proud of me .. they called my dad and my grandfather they caught me in the tv , they saw me in the newspaper .. and the eldest said .. ' our family have live in this world for so long .. now our family finally have someone can show other people that how proud our family is .. kah yan have make this family proud , kah yan have make our great grandparents or great great grandparents proud... '

Do .. do you actually know how good is that feel ?? i mean you make this whole family proud and they can go out and tell their friend that oh i have a very good grandchildren , she represents the country in swimming , she won alot of medal like this .. i very very happy that i can make this family feel proud you know ..

But ... i really feel tired , boring in swimming already ... everyday morning you go school then come back home do homework then rest a while then after that you straight away go for your training then after the training already straight away from the pool to tuition .. every night around 10 then you only can really sit or feel like you are really at home .. this is my life .. i know to someone maybe ou will feel that is a very easy life or a simple life .. but for me .. is a very tired life .. i know this is the life for a swimmer .. every swimmer does that or go throught this life before ... or .. or even someone have a even more tired and tough life then me .. but .. i have been like this for 12 years already .. is more then half of my age already ... is really really very enough ..

Maybe some of you guys think .. wa .. this girl why say until like herself is the only one having a very tough life only .. i'm not trying to show off or something .. i just want to share my emotion now .. if i keep this to myself .. i guess myself will get crazy someday .. lol ..

I dont like people tell me .. i am very dissapointed in you .. i really very scare people tell me this few words .. no matter you are my friend of my coach or my teacher or my family .. i will do everything and make everything perfect to just avoid someone tell me .. i feel very dissapointed in you ...

First time i heard this word from is my dad .. that time i was only dont know 7 or 8 years old .. i dont know to do what my mom say .. and i make my mom very angry .. then my mom go and tell my dad that what i have done .. i cant really remember what i did but i know i make my mom really angry .. then 1 night my dad come and talk to me and said i feel really very dissapointed in you .. after that night .. i dont dare to not listen to my mom anymore .. because i scare after he told me already he will never talk to me anymore ... he will just left me alone .. even untill now i also very scare people will say those word to me already and they will just left me alone and dont want to talk to me anymore and dont want to be friend with me anymore .. i very scare to be alone .. serious .. thats why i will always think should i talk those word out and i won't hurt anybody's feeling ..

The second time i heard is last year october when i'm in india .. i go there for commomwealth youth .. my coach said those word to me .. that time i really really sad and i cry so badly .. because i have already try so hard to swim good in my time but end up i still do a very bad timing in my 100 free i guess .. then when i go and see him that time .. he scold me then he said he dont want to see me anymore and ask me go away .. the thing that i always avoid in swimming is .. i dont let my own coach scold .. even i'm in national team now .. i will do what he told me to and the timing he wants me to do i also will or even i can do faster then that .. but when i in national team .. everything change .. not that i say national team not good .. is good too .. but is just me ..

In the 12 years .. first time i get scold from coach is coach Gavin .. in japan .. during japan open .. 2007 .. first time i get scold from my own coach is that time .. i did a very bad timing in my 100 free .. becuase i was too nervous .. so thats why i cant do well .. lol ..


Alright .. i dont think i should talk too much .. later you all think i so annoying .. haha .. anyway .. thanks to someone who read this .. because i was really looking for someone to talk .. and thanks for reading it ..

Result For Asian Universiti Games

First day 17th December 2008(Wednesday)...


Girls 100m freestyle - Khoo Cai Lin ( Mas) 58.16s

Boys 100m freestyle - Daniel Bego (Mas ) 51.97s

Girls 400m Medley - Thi Thu Trang Nguyen ( Vietnam ) 5.18.67s

Boys 400m Medley - Melvin Chua ( Mas ) 4.38.63s

Girls 50m Backstroke - Shelomita Elisabeth ( Indonesia ) 31.54s

Boys 50m Backstroke - Glenn Victor Sutanto ( Indonesia ) 27.81s

Girls 200m Butterfly - Methawee Metheesart ( Thailand ) 2.26.50s

Boys 200m Butterfly - Daniel Bego ( Mas ) 2.04.47s

Girls 100m Breaststroke - Rachel Lim Leik ( Mas ) 1.16.32s

Boys 100m Breaststroke - Huu Viet Nguyen ( Vietnam ) 1.03.38s


Second Day 18th December 2008 ( Thursday ) ..


Boys 200m Freestyle - Daniel Bego ( Mas ) 1.52.64s

Girls 200m Freestyle - Khoo Cai Lin ( Mas ) 2.03.55s

Boys 200m Medley - Melvin Chua ( Mas ) 2.09.67s

Girls 200m Medley - Jiratida Phinyosophon ( Thailand ) 2.27.98s

Boys 50m Breaststroke - Huu Viet Nguyen ( Vietnam ) 29.25s

Girls 50m Breaststroke - Rachel Lim Leik ( Mas ) 35.06s

Boys 4*200m Freestyle Relay - Malaysia 8.01.58s

Girls 4*200m Freestyle Relay - Thailand 8.58.08s


Third Day 19th December 2008 ( Friday )..


Girls 200m Breaststroke - Mo Qiyu Sandy ( Singapore ) 2.46.96s

Boys 200m Breaststroke - Huu Viet Nguyen ( Vietnam ) 2.21.91s

Girls 400m Freestyle - Khoo Cai Lin ( Mas ) 4.16.96s

Boys 400m Freestyle - Daniel Bego ( Mas ) 3.59.13s

Girls 50m Butterfly - Marellyn Liew ( Mas ) 27.89s

Boys 50m Butterfly - Glenn Victor Sutanto ( Indonesia ) 25.16s

Girls 100m Backstroke - Chui Lai Kwan ( Mas ) 1.08.06s

Girls 4*100m Freestyle - Malaysia 4.05.12s

Boys 4*100m Freestyle - Malaysia 3.34.09s


Fourth Day 20th December 2008 ( Saturday ) ..


Girls 800m Freestyle - Khoo Cai Lin ( Mas ) 8.47.77s

Boys 1500m Freestyle - Kevin Yeap ( Mas ) 16.08.60s

Girls 100m Butterfly - Marellyn Liew ( Mas ) 1.02.95s

Boys 100m Butterfly - Daniel Bego ( Mas ) 54.61s

Girls 200m Backstroke - Porntip Smithsarakarn ( Thailand ) 2.31.63s

Boys 200m Backstroke - Melvin Chua ( Mas ) 2.13.95s

Girls 50m Freestyle - Chui Lai Kwan ( Mas ) 27.23s

Boys 50m Freestyle - Kendrick L.UY ( Philippines) 23.80s

Girls 4*100m Medley - Malaysia 4.28.53s

Boys 4*100m Medley - Indonesia 3.55.00s


They are all the result for asian universiti game.. About the boys 100m beckstroke i will post it later becuase i have miss out the match .. sorry .. hehe ..

Twilight!!!!

I bet you guys ever heard Twilight before right ? haha .. is a very nice movie .. you guys should go and watch .. i promise .. this movie have alot of hot guy .. haha .. you guys will love it .. hehe

Twilight's protagonist Edward Cullen , with his brooding eyes and fancy hair , is a pure pop fantasy creation aimed at setting teen girls' part Edward Scissorhands and a direct descendant of Lord Byron , Edward is hot !!!!!Especially when he confesses to the object of his affection,"I can read every mind in this room except yours.... "Well .. what i can say ? haha..

A pale loner,bella swam which play by Kristen Stewart , moves to the new school in rainy Washington State ,and sees across the cafeteria , a tall , paler loner ,Edward Cullen which play by Robert Pattinson , glowering at her . Bella immediately smitten ; for Edward.. it is love at first sniff .

You see .. Edward,it turn out,is a "vegetarian" vampire who only suck animal blood but bella's presence is threatening to break his restraint.Torn between eating and loving bella ,he tries to scare her away with his evil stares but this only makes her fall more helplessly in love with him .. Hmmm..

But if the little matter of Edward's undeadness is not obstacle enough on their path to eternal love,an evil vampire called James which play by Cam Gigandet , attempts to steal Bella away from her vampire lover and make her his meal ..

Haha.. this is a part of the movie .. but you guys really should go watch .. because i have already watch twice .. hehe .. because this movie is just great .. and also can see handsome guy in this movie .. so .. why not ? but this movie have already put on the cinema very long already .. so if you really want to watch .. should go now .. hehe ..

Oh ya .. if you guy didn't get the see the movie .. well .. all bookstore have already sell the books .. they have 4 .. but i only have seen 2 book so long .. you can get the book if you don't get to see the movie in cinema .. hehe ....

Hello!!

Hey.. i'm new here.. my name is kah yan .. i was born in malaysia , KL .. this year i 16 years old .. haha .. sound a bit stupid.. haha .. anyway .. just want you guy to know .. you can always come to my blog and take a look .. haha .. but i guess i wont be always can post anything on it .. haha .. becuase will be quit busy next week .. hehe .. anyway .. nice to meet you guys ..